You Can’t Handfeed Empathy
She walked to the end of the pier to
She walked to the end of the pier to
My better
Angels,
I have restocked the travel kit
with extracts and suspensions:
calamine, for
Like sumac, ivy, and oak,
sometimes in a grove,
up a wall, to the canopy
I’ve crawled just to feed the birds
yet left you burning in my wake.
drawing salve, for
The aftermath of the blow I struck
splintering my own makeshift raft
to pieces, to bits
using the first sharp heavy stone
I found after my waves
crashed us into that shore.
eugenol, for
Your broken tooth.
When we met, I never should have
punched you in the mouth. You
never mocked me,
nor tugged at the braces
on my ankles, my vestigial toes,
nor placed them there to begin with.
witch hazel on a branch, for
Whatever purpose you see fit.
coarse dirt, for
Scrubbing away the dumb graffiti
now that I’ve covered most of my walls,
your soft shell, your goosedown wings.
I was too fucking lazy
to open a damn dictionary,
or to run the gotforsaken
spell check feature that’s
built into the system, for
Fucks’ sake. I lost any
sense of relative bearing that way,
as always, letting up,
getting sloppy when I should be
triple-proofing the charts.
lanolin in a square tin, one
fine-tined silver comb, pure
hot lye soap, strike
anywhere matches, placed
on a dish besides several curls of
fragrant birch bark.
Ephemeral waterways boil today,
but walk with me still,
let’s go as far as we can,
see when we reach water
and I can wash my hands or,
if we walk far enough then,
maybe, for us,
You can
at least at last
call in the tide.
Neatly dressed
Hair in place
Boys in ties
Girls with soft white gloves
We form a circle
Under the ballroom chandelier
Boy, girl, boy, girl
Taking turns, exchanging partners
Waiting for that moment
My hand in yours
Yours in mine
Your smile, your smell
Touching through gloves
The fire in our hearts
Sitting at the pine kitchen table
bathed in morning light
trying to forget . . .
writing to remember . . .
how the wave of your wand went “poof”
all hard edges instantly soft
a loud crash at the kitchen window snaps me out of my
writing reverie
i open the door
perched on the rail i’m greeted
by a bright eyed bird
staring deeply into my eyes
my heart tells me
you’ve been struggling to stay on this side
thoughts of our indelible “family sign”
the one about three birds
flying into our front window
any time we had a family member laid out at the mortuary
bird’s stare entrances
dove tells me you’ve transitioned
tells me you’re OK
tells me not to worry
phone rings . . . John the mortician our family friend
his voice low whispers, “i’m sorry . . .”
morning dove, you told me you still tell me every time i hear coo coo ~ coo coo
The neighbors
fireworks are just
far enough away
from the fourth
to be annoying
A glance at your
phone reveals
it’s past midnight
The feeling that
June is almost done
crashes over you
like the waves in
Santa Monica
They knock you
to your ass while
he watches and
laughs, pointing
Still, you sit there
like an idiot and
let the water lap
at your chest
Because with you
everything, much
like June, ends
in quiet defeat
I wish I was a sun-croaking cricket—humming through my humid days.
Finding salvation in the short summer. But, I’d bargain for the bareback
Hammock of a horse-fly—outlaw, taking a free-ride away from free will.
I’ll never tire
of those swollen summer
stretched out days
where the sun has lost
the direction and wanders
across the sky
embarassed to ask
anyone to point the way
to live in those moments
where it’s too humid
for noise or thought
letting the body ease
into a chair
and unroll those nerves
find solace
with you
and the promise of forever
I am so very tired of working my life away
Just to watch one day roll into the next
Be sad that I had to miss out on the sunshine
Or a fun game with the kids, or just be in the yard
I’m exhausted with the same mundane mess of a job
That I know I should “just be thankful it pays the bills ”
My mother always says, but my job isn’t always paying the bills
And while, even when it is, am I not and should I not
Be allowed to breathe, or have some kind of payoff for the work,
Maybe besides the weekend and by the time we get there
We’re too damn tired to relax or really have the energy to enjoy it
I know I can’t be the only one who thinks and feels this way
I know there have to be others out there who want more
I have worked my entire life, quitting has never been an option
Right about now though, I sure would take an extended vacation
With absolutely no return date.
do you dream the day away
climbing mountains in the sky
jumping waves in the sea
discovering candy castles?
did you lose your math book
in a puddle on your way to school
pretending it was a ship sailing to
a world where you can fly?
excerpt from my manuscript of poems
for kids of all ages.