no peeking
I use to gawk
I use to gawk

Édouard Manet, Claude Monet in His Studio Boat, 1874.
Fubsy studio
Vermilion fringed vessel
Savor mise-en-scène.
Between life and death
felt like the world
was holding its breath.
Somehow everything
still kept spinning.
Like a ferris wheel
out of control.
Upset stomach. Shock.
The strange feeling
of being paralyzed
while everything else
refused to slow down.
Waiting
can feel unbearable
when life forgets
to be kind.
I blow out a candle.
Bodies pile up in the attic.
Victorian Pyscho, by Virginia Feito
Then cast me to hell
for my commitment
to false idols.
Wash the caked
mud from my eyes;
I am Stupid Blind
Clip the wings from
my back as I writhe
in agony.
Still, I will smother
you in a million
tiny feathers.
A Rash of Trash
A Top the Hill
To My Dismay
Below Us
The Ants Whisper
Among Them
The Secret to Win
Keep Walking
Never seen
Except in cartoons
That snowball gets bigger
Rolling down the mountain
Maybe it was Newton
Sir Isaac knew about apples, gravity
That ball gains speed
Flying down the mountain
Once an idea is born
Give it a little push
And it starts to roll
Forget about it, let it go
Ends up in a ditch
Or completely lost
Stick with it, follow it
With interest, zeal and inspiration
The idea of transforms, becomes real
Creation manifests
As a seed grows into a majestic tree
It was the end of an epic week
We were wrung out from the heat
And the traversing of the entire state of Virginia
Sated on history and local wineries
Stopping to see where the Civil War ended
Appomattox Court House is now just a tiny National Historic Park
Which took no time at all to explore
So we settled in at the B&B
In the room with the funny name
With little to do, and too much time on our hands
Prowling around I found the diploma and the book
Both bearing the name of Havilah Babcock
Oh. Well this bears investigation
Ours was the southern Havilah, University of South Carolina English professor and writer
Not to be confused with the northern Havilah, who founded the Kimberly-Clark Corporation
So when in the Babcock House, in Havilah’s room, you read Havilah Babcock’s book
And it hits breathtakingly hard
Like the first time I read Ada Límon
Where has this been all my life?
I had long decided, that if I ever published my poetry, it should be called “Tales from the Blind”
Because sitting quietly in nature for hours, when I was hunting,
Is what prompted me to start writing again
And here was a kindred spirit
That thought and wrote just like me
I managed to find copies of a few of his books
Long out of print
Now I can sit on my own porch on a sultry evening
And reminisce about Tales of Quails and Appomattox
i walk ~ my feet feel quaked earth
i talk ~ my words resound
i look ~ my eyes blessed to see
many miracles i witness around me
i want to go slow ~ savor the time
feel as my soul feels sublime
erase all the have to’s with want to’s & fun
slow the pace savor the race see thru the chase
to be able to look & able to see
miracles metamorphosing amidst such majesty
hear the trees breathe and children deeply giggle
even watch miss caterpillar perfect her bossa nova wiggle
aaahh to sing and dance in a little purple tutu
draw pictures with chalk on the sidewalk for you
go out for a cup ~ sit in a café for hours
doodling, journaling, conjuring all my creative powers
swear off technology for just one day
listen to my body beats and what they have to say
write a good old-fashioned letter to a dear friend far away
recount the way i used to play when pray was part of my day
i breathe and say, “i’m thankful” for all Milagros given me
to play a piano duet in Central Park ~ bring smiles so easily
a Filipino healer’s hand removed a worrisome lump
Ho’o’pono’pono’s forgiveness chant erased a painful slump
freeway steals soul’s pace to absorb a sacred view
breathe in ~ breathe out ~ each breath ~ an oxygenated renew
no handheld device demanding possession of our soul
go slow ~ breathe in ~ breathe out ~ this our sacred goal