What Did I Know?
Maggie was always there. She came by bus
smooth caramel skin
shy laugh
gentle hands
smile that made you feel loved
What did I know of class division?
What did I know
of oppression
poverty
privilege
Rather, I sat in the deep windowsill, legs dangling
jabbering and listening, steam rising
between us as she ironed the sheets, starched the shirts
taught me about the Trinity
rules for living
sin and salvation
Once she stayed overnight, my parents gone. At bedtime:
What you doing with your arms outside
the covers honey? You tuck yourself in, they go in too,
adjusting my arms, pulling the blanket to my chin for the first time.
What did I know?
Before I recognized letters or numbers I had memorized
the names and ways of her children:
Madge Betty James Charles Robert Butch
Butch is a handful she would always say
and her no-good husband John, he was a handful too
I never wondered who took care of them all. Did not know
children grow up fast
when their mama’s gone morning to night
taking care of some other children
My little girls she called us
Instead, I asked again to hear
the numbers of the buses she rode
the transfers and wait times
the adventure from her home to ours
What did I know? Nothing.
Nothing of what it meant
to love and hug and feed another’s family
Monday through Friday
to catch her first bus home at 8 PM hungry with the hope:
Let them run on time
so I can embrace my own children
wrap them under bedcovers clear up to their chins
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I like how both the balm and the bitterness of this remembering comes through.
I love the italicized dialogue–so specific and credible. You clearly reciprocated her love. Such a tender tone.
“What did I know”. great story…………Thanks for sharing.
I wrote a similarly themed poem recently. When I began to understand that racism wasn’t gone even though laws forbid it, it was a harsh realization.
Very poignant memory!
Wonderful poem! Tender, yet regretful that you only saw this woman from your perspective – like most kids do. It’s the reflective nature of this poem that is so compelling!
Such a heartfelt poem!
I don’t know why, but the line “You tuck yourself in, they go in too” really captures the emotion for me. Also, “steam rising between us,” image of the divide.