Somebody Somewhere
Shortly after the dementia diagnosis, my mother,
who had always had problems telling a straight story,
became a most unreliable narrator.
She was convinced neighbors stole her newspaper,
emptied (or filled) her gas tank,
hid her mail.
She said, “Somebody somewhere.”
I should have known not to ask questions.
I asked where the little Christmas tree was,
so cute with the miniature ornaments
and tiny lights, the perfect size for her side table.
She said, “Somebody somewhere.”*
I wondered where her dentures had gone,
why her coat was covered with flour,
how her glasses broke.
I picked rice out of her hair,
scrubbed ketchup off her cupboards.
She said, “Somebody somewhere.”
I found loose meds in the teacups and in dusty corners.
The fridge held nothing but freezer-burnt fish and a root beer Popsicle.
She repeated the same stories in the same order over and over.
She wore the same clothes day after day.
The arrival of caregivers confused her, made her anxious.
They were telling lies about her to the priest.
They were pumping carbon monoxide into her house.
Somebody somewhere was out to get her.*
During that beginning of what was the end, I lay restless at night, having one wish for any star that would hold it.
Please let Mom remember that somebody somewhere loves her.
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Very familiar and sad.
Oh my –This is such a touching and loving poem—- yet full of so much realism.. The title and the last line are perfect.
The refrain of “Somebody somewhere” works so well through out the poem too. I love it. Thank you!
–perfection–!
I found this poem very touching and detailed. It tells a story so many of us out there can identify with very well and carefully
Such honest feeling and terrific specific details—and that haunting line —somebody somewhere…..
somebody is somewhere inside. My grandmother had dementia and she slept with her recipe box and put old plastic pink curlers in her hair that before had been beautifully coifed by a salon. The worst was when I visited to give my mom a break and she wondered around the house in the middle of the night speaking gibberish in a disgusting old nightgown with a box of cheerios. No one can know what it’s like to be a caregiver in this situation until it happens! You captured this perfectly. Bless you and all the caregivers and grandmas and moms lucky enough to have them. You need to get this one published!😘
Thanks to all who understand and appreciate the experiences that are behind this work.