exceeded my expectations
yet not in a positive way
this did not pan out like I imagined
or rather, hoped
rains pours from a thunder filled sky
today
this last day of June
I’m reminded the second half begins tomorrow
I smile after shedding a few tears
and muster some self encouragement
nothing is awful and I will remain
I am that stable 
though I feel numb
disappointed more than anything
I am ready, or so I thought
the Universe though, has other plans
I despise self-pity
so I pledge not to stay in this state long
tomorrow is a new day
new month, etcetera
this day, I choose to allow the rain and wind have their way
mainly because I apparently cannot have mine