sometimes i want to indulge in my emotions

bathe in them

get lost in them

but on most days i find myself

tucking them back becoming numb

unintentionally locking them away

behind my smile

yet in my mind they are plotted out so deliciously

waiting to be pecked apart like a buffet

by me & the masses

i overanalyze my emotions, undermine them

let others peck at them like frenzied birds when they come out

unedited & wiggling around like hopeless worms on the hot pavement