Is it better to dim my light so much that nobody can see it?

Or is it better to shine so brightly I’m burning and blinding to everyone around me,
even to myself?
Which fate is worse?
Which would I rather seal for myself if forced to choose?
Does it even matter how brightly a light shines or if it even exists in the first place if nobody can seem to see it?
Well, when they sun beats down upon my flesh I still feel its rays burning through me,
searing into me,
tanning my arms and reddening my face.
Even as I close my eyes,
clench them shut so hard I wonder if they’ll ever open again,
I can still feel the warmth emanating from a light that I cannot see