Just One More 30 Doll Christmas
There they all stand
circling the star-spangled tree:
come-hither prom girls,
a hallelujah of glamour
outsparkling decorations,
and the fashion glitter pixies
all wild hair and super powers,
and the Google-eyed babies,
lifelike diapered wonders
who walk and talk and wet
enough to melt a dreaming heart.
I got an Annie girl one year,
at least that’s what my mother called her.
Short brown hair and flat feet,
no fancy hair ribbons or house of dreams.
The only thing pink was her naked body,
and even that conjured no hope of a boyfriend.
My mother added handmade clothes:
off-color green dress too long in the waist,
baggy plaid pajamas, a patchwork jumpsuit.
Annie was shame, manacle, outcast.
I realize now my mother did her best,
sewing scraps of cloth late into the night
after her shift at the factory.
Hungry, eyes bleary, fingers
needle pricked and bloody,
always worried she would never
be able to wash out the stains,
weaving in stitches of love
I had yet to learn.
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This is lovely, Sylvia. I especially like all the visual details and the warmth and love of the ending.
Yes, I think we posted at the same time. This poem is multi-faceted. You took a concept related to tariffs that “children may only get two dolls instead of 30 for Christmas” and reflected on that one doll received. Such a sweet testament to the working family. My mother made our doll clothes also, and we only received one doll for Christmas. “Weaving in stitches of love” is beautiful.
“a hallelujah of glamour” Yes yes yes.
This is so lovely. Your talent for description really shines. Love then idea of fashion glitter pixies.
vivid details, memories, and political poem all in one!
the word “manacle” so concrete it sticks hard
Love the details of the first stanza, and how it contrasts with the second stanza. The title gives it another dimension.
dynamite ending
Sylvia! Amen! I, too, was irate about the 30 doll remark. I grew up pre-Barbie. Had 4 dolls my entire childhood, each with 1 outfit. Had only a hand-down teddy bear until i was over 45 when i began collecting them to draw for pay (now on fine. Ar America with more being added there). I’m poetry obscessed, and a cozy mystery addict. We should meet! :-). I ached for your mom reading this & deeply felt your love/appreciation for her. This poem is a keeper. Thank you!
Love this honoring of one more 30 doll Christmas, the imagination and fun with each one, and the love stitched in their clothing by your mom.
The narrative progression from childish longing and shame to adult empathy and appreciation is beautifully executed, thank you for sharing!
I laughed when I read the title. But it sets up a really evocative reflection. Wonderful.