Today my heart hurt too much to function
but I did.  I managed to put one foot in front 
of the other and did my job,
and went walking with a friend

Life seems to be moving on 
without a huge part of my family
and I find myself without words
to express the gaping hole in my heart and life

How do I express the pain that I feel just
thinking about a future without my son?
How can I describe the desolate state of my
heart and mind right now, as pain pulses through my being?

How can I be who I am, without the part of me that
made up my beloved son?
I have no words for once.  There is no way to describe
a world without him.