Once again as the day starts to begin,
my mind recognizes that you no longer live
and I wonder how many times I will
have to come to that realization every morning

Will the knowledge that you died, 
eventually make its way into my mind as a fact?
Will I eventually stop thinking about you every day 
and wonder what you would be doing if you were here?

My mama’s heart longs to nurture you again,
but I know that God’s care is so much better and
you are not only healed, but happy and wholly nurtured
by your heavenly father and now you have no needs.

Now, I must start my day, nurture those that are present
with me, while the gaping hole in my heart swells with pain
and I wonder how I can get through this, yet knowing that the
same God that you now reside with, holds me in his arms as I grieve.