I knew old people
Who were lively,
Filled with laughter,
Youthful, fun.

Promised myself I would be one.
How hard can it be
To just keep being who you are
As the years pass by.

But that was not an option.
Funerals change you.
Your grandparents,
Your aunts and uncles,
Dozens of your classmates,
All of them are gone.

Both of your parents,
Three of your best friends,
Your sister,
Your own child,
Are gone,
And you cannot be who you were.

Little laughter is left in you,
Little impulse for fun,
And you wonder how shallow
One would have to be
To be light-hearted now.  

You cannot reflect a light
That no longer shines on you.