my therapist said

that sometimes

we run out of coping skills

that will work in the moment

sometimes we have to just distract

she asks me if i work so much to avoid feeling

my feelings

my structure & routine

help keep the depression

lows from hitting

rock bottom

keep my highs

humbled

keep me grounded

keeping my feet

planted in reality

although,

there are days

i wish for more downtime

more me time

i remember the

economy is kicking my ass