You’re my Lemon boy,

you know. 
although we met when you were a flower.
We grew close when nature turned you to a weed. 
but the thing is,
dandelions are still weeds. 
You were always a flower. 
forced to become a weed.
and I love you and you’re story,
always will.

A rose prick you,
made everyone look at you like a weed. 
but I was pricked by the same rose. 
I know.
I understand. 
I trust you. 

But my favorite part of our story,
After the fact we survived the same rose
only making us closer, 
it’s that I felt a calling to you
the day you felt alone. 
When everyone left you,
I got the privilege to be the one to come to you. 
I didn’t even know it at the time,
I hadn’t heard the rumors.
And once I was told them by that rose,
I immediately went to you.

but it’s funny in a way. 
I was pricked by the same rose with different thorns,
but pricked with the same thorns by a different rose. 
it’s funny how interlinked out roots are. 

then I discovered more of your story. 
parts you rarely tell people. 
it made us closer,
it made me trust you. 
it’s was easy for me to get attached,
hard to gain my trust.
But I trust you more than anything now. 

But another one of my favorite parts of our story was recent. 
It happened years ago for you,
but it just happened to me. 
we were loved wrongly,
touched callously. 
but I firmly believe everything happens for a reason. 
I now connect with you on an even deeper level,
I went to you for help first,
because I know
You knew. 
You understood.
You trusted me.

I’ll never be able to thank you for everything you’ve done,
even if I spent the rest of my life trying.

but then comes the fertilizer. 
then comes the clouds and rain. 
Every single day I fear I’ll hurt you.
I fear losing you.
It happens to me all the time. 
one after another I lose and lose and lose people,
people I’ve given everything to.
people close that I tried everything
and I always get pushed away.

I cried today just thinking about you walking away,
wondering if you feel the same.

but no matter what,
I love you. 
Always will.