The gym is empty.
It was once full,
But now it’s empty.
A pale light spills through a single window,
A large window
An unimaginably vast window
That looks out on one thing
And one thing alone.
On one side of the glass is a memory,
On the other side reality.
I’m trapped somewhere in between.
I’m trapped
Trapped somewhere in between.
The light illumines a treasure
That hides in the heart of the lonely room,
A treasure I discovered
Too late
Too late
Too late.
I guess it was nice, Anonymous,
To have someone who always reminded me:
Things will be okay.
My smiles cover up the cobwebs that hide behind my eyes.
My world is dark,
So I cover it up.
I guess it was nice, Anonymous,
To have someone who always encouraged me
To share my cobwebs,
Someone who wasn’t disgusted
By the spiders living in them.
I’m disgusted.
Dust fills the air
The air of the lonely gym;
Not thick, suffocating dust,
Just drifting dust
That doesn’t have anywhere to land.
It should have been obvious.
Hindsight is perfect vision,
But making the same mistake again and again is insanity.
Again and again
Again and again is insanity.
I should have known, Anonymous,
That I placed this pane of foggy glass
This protective shield of glass
This pain incased in glass
In glass
In glass
I should have known
As I placed this glass between us,
That I did it out of fear.
I listen to the voice of the spider
That lives in my chest
Right next to my love.
I wish you knew, Anonymous.
I wish you knew
You knew I ran
I ran away from you
I ran away from you out of fear.
I wish, Anonymous,
I wish you knew
What lives beneath the cobwebs.
I wish you knew
I wish you knew
That if I could choose again
I would choose you.
I love you Anonymous,
And now the place where you were is vacant.
The place where you were is vacant.
Even the dust longs for something to fill the lonely gym,
So it can have a place to settle.
I love you Anonymous,
Even though I have to love you
From behind a pane of dirty glass.
This protective shield of glass.
This pain encased in glass.
I love you Anonymous,
Even though I have to let you go.