Shock and awe
diarrhea of spewing word salad
overwhelms my reactions to respond
speechless and dumbstruck
No longer able to respond to every paper cut against my philosophies
Am I sensitive to a fault?

I look at houses on Zillow sometimes when avoidance wins out
at the trendy, mega, dated, curated grandness
Grandma treasures
And houses in poverty
Analyzing personality types from the staged and un-staged photos
Empty homes bedazzled via Walmart and amazon
Color and material choices speak volumes of facts that may be untrue
Houses filled with knick-knacks wanting to convey something
And then
Realizing somehow my treasured items may not make the cut of the antique shop

The way I looked at Autotrader magazines back in the day
Was like a teenage boy at a teenage girl
Not really leering
Thinking
the right car
Or job
Or house
Or something would be the next expected goal

Empty houses
Empty hearts
Empty heads
The shock and awe has become disappointment
Disappointment in expectations being too great and realizations too recent