Baby I’m struggling right now
And if you had told me how hard this would be
I wouldn’t have believed how
So now
I’m sitting with a phone full of photos
And videos
With a trio of kids that would probably feel alone
So
I push on
No space left to save what memories I have left
Just wondering how much of myself
I gave up
To make sure that they felt loved 
To make sure that they had
And to make sure they remembered me as more
Than just their dad
I have to leave them more than what I got
(And don’t get me wrong, it was way more than I deserved)
But you all deserve to never experience a tenth
Of the life I began with
So all that I am I dedicate to making sure you never touch it
So much of this
That we seem to be in love with
But I’m struggling right now 
Just to explain all of this to you,
…wow.
I think I finally figured it out in real time
And last time it took five
But this took twice as long
Tonight
So I’ll continue this drill and hope that it produces something
Good tonight