Please forgive me
but I cannot
not devour the earth,
cannot not pry
open my jaw
like a tear in
space-time and take
the universe in,
the stars and comets,
the moons and green
men screaming,
I cannot not
lie on my back
and open a hole
in my head so wide
the laws of physics
fall in, I cannot
keep myself closed,
cannot sit with
my own blood and sinews
and the fingers
wrapped in my fingers
and let that be everything,
cannot not chew up
all that matters
into gristle.