the ache isn’t just in my head tonight
it’s concrete
it’s like shackles
it’s deep into my bones
it ripples through my veins
making my whole self hurt

​i don’t want to leave forever
i just want a break from right now

just a few moments of not feeling

​i don’t know how to explain
how i want to be here
but not want to be here
all at the exact same time

​so i’m just sitting here with it
counting my breaths
wanting the air to feel a little lighter
and for the ache to fade

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