129 Students
129 Students I had in my grade this year
And the year before that
And the year before that
129 Students and 2 actually know me
1st year was a nightmare
Walk through the new halls
Within 2 days had a group of 4 bullies
Found friends from old places
Spoilers, they’re all gone
Try to reach out
Betrayed by whom I trusted most
Still reeling from the relationship in 8th grade
2nd year was despair masked as a fresh start
Makes new BEST friend
Spoiler, left me behind for a boyfriend
Meet new group of friends
Best thing that’s ever happened to me
“We adopted you into our group”
Feel guilty about how I didn’t deserve this
This amazing feeling that actually uplifts me for once
Makes new friend
Devil in disguise
Shows addiction
The thrill was too much
For to long
Slices to deep
1st time institutionalized
False support from the ones who love me most
November 11th Singles Day comes around
Realizes what it means to be alone
Dissociate to music for hours on end
3rd year was amazing compared to the rest
Still bad though
Meet favorite teacher
Meet new friend
Spoilers this one’s actually cool
Blaze through 3 months
Nothing special ever happening
Floating through life
Meet new friend
Spoiler still around and enthusiastic
Get crush on friend from the beginning of year
Feel guilty about how much I think about them
Feel guilty about how I think about my ex and still fantasize the life where we were still together
While still believing in something with the friend,
Relapse
2nd time institutionalized
Gain more support structures
Given medicine for Bipolar Disorder
Crush stays
Feel guilty to this day
Therapist sucks
Connect more with 2nd friend and they’re family
Feel happy
Discovers addiction
Deeper hole
Dreadful of the next year