it’s a hopeful sad, 
i tell my therapist 
on the screen 
i don’t look at myself
in the box in the right 
hand corner
she asks, what does that mean 
i say i feel it in my 
breast bone 
like a flutter
an echo of something 
that once was 
& might be again 
in another shape 
i say, that doesn’t 
help much does it?