Loss
I can still see it:
the scene that draws me in the dream—
the trip down a gentle river that I have known,
the way into a familiar wilderness;
the editorial meeting where I present the article idea
with all those talented friends now gone;
the backyard ballpark with lines chalked on concrete
and the whiffle-ball game in progress;
the seminary in Dayton, archetypal architecture,
remade in patterns inviting discovery;
the front porch upstairs in summer behind the awnings
reading the latest Hardy Boys mystery;
the envelope from the stamp dealer
who trusted a kid with items on approval;
the family store on a cool summer morning
where the screen door in the back room
looks out on the green lawn of the church across the way;
our 1965 trip to the Smokies and the Biltmore House,
a real vacation after all;
the sacristy of Saint Monica’s
and the challenge to say Mass
when the book will not yield the text;
the Newhouse School in Syracuse and the classroom
in scriptwriting where Joe and I traded ideas;
the streets of Assisi on pilgrimage
shifting in medieval revelations;
the streets of Over-the-Rhine in Cincinnati from up high,
as I leap from pinnacle to balcony in endless succession
spanning a vast metropolis–
so clear,
so real,
until it all begins to slip away slowly,
a slick thing that you can no longer hold
until at last you see its shadow going
and must decide to rise and
(old guy that you are)
plod to the bathroom.
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love how the the indentations pull me down this “gentle river,” the white space invites the “leap” from dream to reality, the parenthetical allows for a dry ending.
Love the images of life presented, especially, “the family store on a cool summer morning/where the screen door in the back room/looks out on the green lawn of the church across the way;
Dream journey that captures so many life transitions. I love the details you provide that give a sense of the journey, the changes, the vulnerability of life. .
You had me leaping those balconies so much so that I want to erase the ending!
Oh…the fast-fading dream! You caught that very well here. And the dream really pulled me into a light-reading trance–and then comes the axe to jar me awake. Well done, Greg!
WONDERFUL. The journey through the memories via a dream is gorgeous and poignant. Then isolating “so clear, / so real,” creates a beautiful pause of reflection. And then melancholy and fear to WOW- an explosion of humor! I love, love, love this!
Thank you, Michele!
Such important and loving memories to rise up and make their way to you! “a slick thing that you can no longer hold” – just a beautiful description! Thanks, Greg!