Wrath of God
All this articulation
All this articulation
Early morning, there’s
no such thing as exhaustion
on the side porch.
You will fall asleep in the velvety cove of a steer’s ear.
What happens when a muscle tightens
and steels and dries like a
stubborn desert butte?
Hemingway claimed
every man has two deaths:
in the dirt, then in the minds —
I raise him a third:
my being amounts to five feet,
my things, likely a five by five room,
but my hair clings to combs, carpets, clothes,
my sloughed-off cells swirl in dust,
my sweat and spit stick
to grass blades and pillow cases,
bike chains and mug rims,
my nail indents sit in pins, pen caps, stress balls,
my blood resides in sink pipes,
my fingerprints linger
on table edges and book pages,
flower stems and light switches.
The heavens marked my departure,
nature nesting my ends and starts,
and as the earth holds me,
as you once held me and I held you,
I owe the earth my embrace;
though I may stay a skeleton under stones,
my name, a whisper in scant memories,
trust, Hemingway,
that my touch is tethered:
in dirt, minds, and indents —
I persist in echoes.
is not a path but a map
of every motion
not a map but a labyrinth
a morass
of directions, repetitions
reversals
every fear, every wound
I haven’t let go
not a labyrinth
but a trap
every cigarette
every mistake
caught in a dysfunctional body
struggling ceaselessly back
to plasticity
and feeling
splayed out again on the bed
thrashing
Sometimes, you’ve gotta admire the destruction,
It started with one
a boy in all red
from his hair
to the race car locked in his grip
Then there were two
a boy who chose blue
from his shoes
to his crayons and his soapy bathtub trinkets
A cookie monster sweatshirt
he insisted on wearing
’til his belly hung out
as he grew too tall for it
A kid in love with bubbles
and blue sprinkle-covered butter treats
in that moment
when color choice is as complicated as life gets
Maybe Yeats was right about that rough beast.