do you know what wakes me in the night:
the swell & diminshment
of the ocean of my life
its 28,00 days filled 
with the motion of bliss & duty
the despair 0f divorce &
the ecstacy of our first kiss
how bad I’ve been & how good

you dare ask what happiness is:
the English alphabet use to end 
with an ampresand
x, y, z, and “&”
we use letters to make words 
words to make sentences
sentences to complete thoughts
there’s always more 
how can we just end with z,
happiness is like that,
accepting that everything
contains its opposite
the easy & the hard
the start & the finish
the good & the bad
&…..