I’m glad you finally reached out. I’m sure you have felt lonely dealing with yourself and not talking to anyone about your troubles. I understand when you express that you don’t want to get anyone else involved. You don’t want to owe anyone anything. But isn’t owing an apology to everyone greater than any favor you may have to return? If the bonds of your love with others are weak, where shall your strength be found in times of need? You don’t think there is a reason to be better, but you don’t know what is yet to come. You may miss opportunities because you aren’t ready. Champion being more optimistic; your current pessimism has you static in a place you are not fond of. Here’s the deal: if you end up liking where you are currently better than where you may end up after changing your mindset, you can always go back to the place you are now. The alcohol and negative thought patterns will be just as accessible in the future as they currently are. I haven’t heard back from you in a week, but I check your social media profile daily for a glimpse of how you may be doing.