I once stayed up all night 

making three Jacob’s Ladders
out of 24 3″×3″ canvases. 
They fit well inside an old wine box
I might have gotten at an antique store
And they were all connected to a handle,
so that when you turn the handle 
you turn all the ladders at once
 and this changes the face of the painting
with that lovely flip flip cascade of sound. 
There are two paintings, one on each side. 
A self portrait, an array of red and blue color in the hair,
which from a distance appears dark brown. 
The eyes are some of my favorites
in a portrait. Accurately portrayed a light golden
as my eyes look in the sun.
The other, a painting of the moon rising
behind my old apartment building on Second St.
With lots of pinks and blues. 
I had a Jacob to help keep me going, when I felt myself losing hope.
And frankly to make any sense of the challenge,
We called ourselves the blind Jacob’s Ladder Makers,
I think because we were both doing something
we didn’t know how to do and weren’t taught.
We just looked at a Jacob’s Ladder to figure it out.
There is only one “true” face at a time 
to the painting, 
for on the backside you will see the painting shuffled up and upside down. As each row bends backward during it’s waterfall effect.
Currently the side facing my room is the backside of my face. 
The side that would ordinarily face the wall. 
Upside down and shuffled
It feels like a fitting self portrait