chat room conversations
I should have known you’d never notice me
with my posterboard sign
but I guess it was childhood belief
just write gallopgal51
he will bring you backstage
I know him, he’s my friend
I should have seen, I was a scammer myself
pretending to know what the questions meant
do you wear lipgloss
are you a virgin
is it wet?
I pined to be a girl in the music videos,
hair less messy, more blonde, clearer skin,
no more wire frame glasses. Tradewinds in my hair,
scent of coconut, ice and rum in my glass.
I was a girl, not a woman.
I was a child desperate to grow.