Caterpillar dreams

In the threshold screams
I wax and wane 
Suck up the pain
Let them think they know my name
Hang my mind beside the door
Contemplative destructive whore
Hungry for something a little more
Built a wall of failed ambition 
Left the dishes in the kitchen 
Placed a kid on both of my hips
Reduced my smile to just the lips
Twisted my body in selflessness 
I cocooned myself as it hit
Parked my grief without permit 
Emerged as something counterfeit