1. I can’t shut my eyes for longer than thirty seconds without seeing all my mistakes on repeat in a theatrical setting
2. I can hear her voice like a song telling me every wrong step that I will take
3. When I look into your eyes, I hear the metronome sound of calmness and clarity
4. But when I look into your eyes, I see all the pain, potentially.
5. I can’t decide if I crave eternal isolation or community
6. Is this earth even right for me?

And the next time that I break, will I crave it or seek therapy?

Is anyone listening?

I’m formed with egg shell, a smirk drawn on

When you look me in the eyes, you see joy and exaggerated injury

But be careful, I may not be crying wolf.

You see, not a single soul can see my pain, I wouldn’t expect them to.

I am the sweet girl with that smile that screams “mental stability”

So if she looks at me with a straight face and says she tried to die, it’s stagy

But when the shell begins to crack, please don’t act like I didn’t tell you previously

And when I come back, don’t patronize me