my alarm rings and it’s not fun and exciting like the end of the challengers (2024) theme song.
i lied down for an hour and didn’t sleep at all.
i thought about dialogue i’ll never say out loud to anyone because i’m too shy and have no one to talk to,
and i won’t write it down because it’s just for thinking, not for writing.
i don’t know how to approach the page anymore.

everyone is having a fun summer without me,
but i’m too tired to go out.
my georgia friend asked me if i could ask my michigan friend if i could be invited to eclipse-type events,
and then she went to the beach without me.
am i allowed to ask?
i don’t know the ettiquette,
or how to have a fun summer.

the girls in the theater next to me laughed everytime they played the challengers (2024) theme song.
i wish i could understand their humor.
i am the perfect audience for a film score. it effects me as desired.
i was roused, excited, and engaged.
they laughed under their breathes.
the couple sitting to the left of me didn’t make it through the whole movie. they defintely came to fuck, thinking it was a late showing to an old movie, and no one would be there.
we were all there.
there was another couple, two friend groups, and two alone people—me and a guy.
we all came to see the three-way movie, which was way more than a three-way movie.
i was surprised a man wrote this movie, because it seemed like it was made for women.
and then i remembered, that man was gay.
and it turned out, it was a movie made for people attracted to men (gender disregarded.)
it was a very bisexual movie.
i felt really regarded.

salsa class was a disaster today. and i already signed up for 8 more lessons.
now i learned my lesson: wait and see.
i had fun dancing with myself in my apartment and got cocky.
now i’m re-guarded.

i hate my alarm. i don’t want to leave my house. i don’t know how to have a fun summer.
maybe it’s not like the alarm in the challengers (2024) theme song.
it’s like the guy cursing out his alarm at the end of the challengers (2024) theme song.