I want to go away
at least for a little while
enough time for memories to fade
and new dreams to compile

Only one way to escape
the visions engrained
then I close my eyes
Knowing I’ve gone beyond insane

when I squeeze my eyes
tightly
all I can see is every line
of you
eyes closed, I finally
can feel your fingers on my skin
itll be the death of me when I feel them again
because when it comes to you I’ll never win
And when it comes to me
Escape is the only way
Using your bait, those lips that keep me at bay

The only resolution is to go away
at least for a little while
close my eyes and 
pretend I’m a child

in The midst of chaos, 
Apparently that’s a home I reach to,
I must run far from here
instead stuck to the floor again
anything to avoid the mirror 

Any escape to not feel 
the force inside me 
that’s impossible to heal
Why can’t I just be?

concluding
there is no escape
only a permanent one
knowing I would earn a place
near the sun

instead. I’ll try every escape I can 
to replace the touch of your hand
Knowing damn well it’s in vein
knowing damn well that hand caused all this pain
knowing damn well you broke me into pieces
knowing damn well I’m addicted to the lies he says