with red hot joints
yellowing lungs  
alkaline heavy sweat 
I can see this gate 
that needs to be held open
someone coming down 
a over saturated green hill 

when I come to
then television has
went dark 
the cats slumbering 
beside me 

but I can’t shake 
the panic of
holding open 
a deep yellow gate 
for someone 
I don’t even know