guilty by association
Decades of practice
at pariah-like status
in my own family prepared me
for this, the inevitable
turn
where I see the shun coming
double-barrel. How dare
the hippie, the transplant-Yankee
not respect the unspoken
‘we don’t criticize the blue line’
treaty, brokered without my signing
& before my time. It takes a
beat
to shoulder the weight, to slot
a reply sweeter than
‘I won’t shut up. You can die
mad about it.’ from tongue to mind
(as always, I *aim* for kind)….
but
what catches me
is the shine in your eyes. This
is your blood
naming me ‘hatred’, saying
clearly my eyes see evil in souls
where I know it does not reside.
I
am good with it. Unsurprised.
But you
for you, is this new? The weight
shifts, sublimating in saline-light.
Becomes a choice
you now get to carry. All
I can do, is apologize.
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It’s hard when there are battle lines within a family! Thanks for sharing.
Such grit, girl! Would not expect less from you.
As always, I love your honesty and your word choice, how you spin your compassion into gold.
And the hyphenated “saline-light” and “transplant-Yankee” feel like tools you’ve used throughout your writing career. They add a special punch, signature to you.
Admire and wanna borrow your hyphen magick. 😉
Love you.
@Sylvia – thank you for understanding. <3
@ Tabitha – Yes, it was a *day* yesterday… thank you for calling it grit; it’s a high compliment for me. <3
I don't know what to say about they hyphen situation, lol… I've been doing that… forever? Saline-light felt kinda familiar; don't know that I've ever called myself a Yankee in writing before. *blushingly accepts compliment*
You can borrow it anytime.
Love you.
‘we don’t criticize the blue line” > I wonder where it was in my life that a simple admonition to obey the law and respect the uniform taught to the children of my day became a rant against a generation of men and women who can’t breathe. Why did we go here when we had better choices.
Your poem hits right in the middle of today’s dilemmas.
I am struck by “choice”—decisions made that change everything.
you captured it quite while.