It’s Not What I Wanted
I still know all the words to “Cinema.”
And I still remember exactly how you did your makeup,
Which perplexed me because I did mine the exact opposite.
I still know all the words to Harry’s House, actually.
And I still remember how your enthusiasm was unmatched,
Which perplexed me because I am so insanely pessimistic.
I still know that I fucked up.
And I still know that you’re one of the greatest things that ever came into my life.
I know now that I am no better,
And that I am no worse
Than anyone else who abandoned you.
I just hope that it no longer hurts.