I used to dread the summer every year.
I’ve always loved school and learning
and always lot I hated it because of that.

But now I can’t wait. 

for the first time in my life,
I’m excited for summer
and finally realized why I hated it. 

it’s not the lack of learning,
or bugs
or getting sun burnt,
it’s the lack of friends. 

I got attached to toxic people
that only talked to me when they had to,
like at school. 

But then I changed. 

I wanted to become my role model
after she passed, my Mimi. 

I started by cutting out people who didn’t care. 

now I have people that
apologize when they miss plans,
tell me they wanted to,
explained,
and rescheduled. 

and when we have fun,
we plan for the same thing the next day. 

the first year I’m actually excited for summer. 

I’m forever grateful to God
for providing me with amazing friends
that are right for me. 

And I can’t wait to find more. 

I used to sit in my room,
crawled in a ball,
rocking,
thibking they were coincidentally always busy.
now I know. 

now I lay in my bed
on a call
while planning with other people. 

I never want this feeling to end. 

I hope this years summer breeze
doesnt blow too far away.