Outside Her Door
She doesn’t know how
to be a dog, my stepdaughter tells us,
of her own wild child, bristled fur
behind her chewed up window blinds,
and I think, but do not say,
I don’t know how
to be your mother, though I try
to remember
me at twenty-six, impossible
to be both woman
and daughter, blindly
battering the walls, searching
for the limits of my own parents’ love.
There is so much I do not know,
or say, now that I am
nobody’s daughter.
I have forgotten
all the wrongs I could never
forgive them, and am still
too blind to see the wounds
I surely have afflicted,
mother only to another
mother’s child.
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My goodness! These first three poems. Such great imagery, such intense emotions, and such landings. Thank you.
Sometimes step parenting can be a bitch.
Books dont tell you that there is absolutely no reason for them to even like you. Works out great for some though.
Paulette:
Lexpomo is so lucky
to have you in its community.
what a pleasure to read this poem.
Your phrases, line breaks, word
choices – all exquisite;
and the shared experience
of generational heart-break
we all face.
What everybody else has stated. So powerful.
Your work is extraordinary.