I’ve been wrestling roots
and old-growth demons
   first-born
   peacemaker
   penitent
   phobophobic
   imposter  

What if
I dig my fingers
deep in my own soil
solely for the sensation
of turning handfuls of my humus self
back toward the sun  

What might it mean
to tell my story in this season
sub-lithospheric
cave-painting by torchlight
my own song echoing
mitochondrial magma  

What if mud in my hair and worn amber beads
are the loftiest adornments
neanderthal soul
meant to wander fault lines
unearthed
   free of any name
   that came before