situation and preparation:
I have a white dress with sequins.
it makes me feel like a disco ball.
It’s true… it’s a hotgirl dress.
I like it (even though I’m not a hotgirl.)
people with nothing better to do would mind,
offended by my audacity
making a nightout headline.
(A part of me is scared of them
and a part of me is ashamed I am afraid.)

but most people won’t care!
I’ll proceed without caution.

Justification, just in case I need caution:
I have the dress and I must wear it!
• enjoy your wardrobe! Live life fearlessly! Be yourself! You’re doing great!
• don’t waste money, you evil burden.
your clothes are killing the environment.
• don’t let it be in vain. The world is dying. It’s all* your fault.
• *it’s not actually all your fault.

Caution:
maybe that hotgirl thing wasn’t valid, but,
It will get spilled on so I must not wear it.
you bought it, so don’t ruin it.
where will I wear it then?
a party with no food or drinks
an environment with no rain or climate,
and don’t sweat in it either.
I guess I’ll become a mannequin.
I would be less inconvenient that way, at least.

maybe I’m not ready to wear this dress.