The depths of the longing I feel for you

Are so immense and grand

That my heart swells in my chest

Preventing oxygen to filter through my body

Creating a veiled delusion

That this was ever meant to be 

But in those depths

I also feel the immensity

Of how I know I can go on without you

How you do not long for me

With as much heat or desire

As I do for you

How much that pains me

To know you do not desire me

As I am

Or who I will maybe become?

My heart deflates

My eyes swell with held back tears

I can not look at you in your reddened eyes

Because my heart will shatter

Not because I am worried of how

You will receive me

But at knowing I am right

But also, at knowing

I will be okay

As much as I hoped this be

The greatest love story of my life

I know it is not

Though it hurts, I knew this reality

Long before it occurred