my father’s heart / my grandfather’s brain / the corpse of a dead bird crushed under my shoes / nuclear war / dead car battery / credit card payment / tariffs / fascism / what will I wear to the bar tonight / do I have enough money for the bar tonight / should I really be going to the bar tonight? / my father’s lungs / my mothers lungs / my lungs / why am I still single / should I be on anxiety meds? / should I be on depression meds? / gotta clean the room / gotta go to work / get some sleep / my father’s heart / my grandfather’s brain / the corpse of a dead bird crushed underneath my shoes like cheap plastic