I recall...

You said "I love you" too soon
Then you flew me to the moon
And... It didn't take much
To be convinced of your love

They said I was what you needed,
That you came broken and defeated
Your touch was constant
Your voice... Heaven sent

I made you "better," you said
Claimed without me you'd be dead
Yes, it was all about you,
While I dodged daggers you threw

I recall... 

The "waiting" and worried nights,
Followed by merciless fights
Your words of venom erupted
And my untethered soul, disrupted

Attacks that lacerated my spirit
Shocked how quickly the fear hit
While your eyes blazed of fire
      It was then... 
Your thrown grew even higher

I recall... 

Definitively splitting you,
Unequivocally, in two
Tolerate "Bad" for what "Good" would do
But... Then, apologies became few

How vastly the tables shifted,
Through pieces of me you sifted
Finding weak spots here and there
Knowing which parts to tear

I recall...

When you went from red to green
And from warmth to cold and mean
Then to red and back again
But your pull would always win

Captivated by the high you'd give
Weathered by the lies you live
Smothered, my breath you'd take
Uncovered what you couldn't fake

I recall...

The shivers down my spine,
The tears that finally weren't mine
The desperation in your voice,
Intent to manipulate my choice

I recall...

A haunted vision of myself
I looked so small, just a shell
Starving body, starving heart
Broken pieces, torn apart

I recall...

Moments of gathering shattered pieces
Dead eyes that forgot what peace is

I recall...

When my greatest fear was you leaving me,
Then it became of how you treated me

I recall...

Hiding, lights off, on my kitchen floor
Through tears I said, "No More"

What I recall...

Is that it was real,
What you did, you can't conceal 
And I will keep recalling
To keep myself from falling...

For you,
    To you,
        Or 
         Because of you
Ever
    Again.