I yearned for darkness
Consuming all my desire
Until I didn’t yearn for anything anymore. 
But now that I’ve poked my head out 
Into the light 

I want 

I want.

Consuming my insides
How much I need
Give it to me.
         Don’t.
Please.
          No. 

I push and pull my aching to and fro
Convincing myself I don’t need it
I don’t want it

When it’s clawing its way up through
My throat and out of my mouth
Trapping itself in my nostrils until 
It realizes there’s nowhere else to go
Except to reach brain matter. 

Where it knaws and rots and squelches out of my ears.
Make it someone else’s problem until it chews them up from the inside out

And they have to squash it
I self cannibalize.
I eat myself alive until there’s nothing left but everything 

And it’s too much

I’m too much.