Posts for June 21, 2017 (page 2)

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Poem

21st

Every summer I sit and carve the flesh from peach pits with sticky hands and my grandfather’s tweezers. 
I do it until my fingers hurt and my eyes are sore, escavating the pits and divets. Scooping sugar to get closer to the poison. 
Divine fruit, peaches. Eaten on ocean cliffs, on soil in green drapery, in dirty bedrooms with the windows open. 
Divine tool, these tweezers. Kept in a metal first aid kit, having plucked splinters from babied finger tips and insect bodies from mossy bark. 
Divine job, this that I’ve given myself. Immoralizing June’s kisses and July’s bites with sticky hands and my grandfathers tweezers. 


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Poem

Just As Many

Until I was allowed to mow the grass,
I imagined I never would.  I’d lie in the yard,
flat on my back, ticks and grass stains
my last concerns, plucking clovers
from their roots to make the world’s
longest clover chain. 

When I heard the engine fire up in the garage,
I’d flee for the house, mourning the loss
of my beloved clovers as the mower’s blades
cut their lives prematurely short.

Today, dipping in and out of trees,
dodging stray white pine needles and spruces,
there’s a lot I wish I could share
with the little girl kicking her feet up 
in the spattered sunshine.

I’d let her know that joy can be gleaned
from an accomplishment as mundane
as cutting five acres in a day, even if
it’s no Guinness world record for
the longest chain of flowers.

I’d give her the taste of a Granny Smith
straight from the branches, so she’d know
it’s just as satisfactorily sour as when
she’d climb into the treetops to reach it.
I’d make sure she bit around the bugs.

I’d allow her to slather herself with sunscreen,
mow whimsical patterns against the wind
and have its caress wash away afternoon’s heat.
I’d want her to inhale deeply as the tires
crushed pears and rotten apples, sickly sweet
perfume filling her nostrils for a moment.

Most of all, though, I’d want her to understand
that just as many poems are born in the mind
of a broken woman in the seat of a riding mower
as there are in the heart of a little girl lying
in a meadow, crowned with clover chains.


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Poem

Sub-textual

We can keep having sex until
you love me.

What?    You can’t fuck your
way to love.

We can try.


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Poem

#828182 ( 130, 129, 130)

hand outstretched 
inadvertently towards 
a burning brush pile
that was the catalyst for the discovery,
a gloved hand of a mother,
my cousin,
clearing twigs, stacking branches,
transubstantiating excess nature
into energy and ash and
order
around her home,
a extended gloved hand holding
the tiniest discovery–
a species of salamander
scurrying from destruction,
covered in particulate woodchips and earth
resting frozen from fear
in this protected, protecting hand
displaying it in admiration and curiousity
for me to photograph, document
to send away for identification
in a burning moment of connection
with ourselves and the other
things in our environment

once recorded, those grey gloves
move towards the ground
to release our newfound friend
back to freedom
and then to tend to
the flames flickering in the afternoon breeze
and the branches left to burn

eventually the pile will disappear,
the fire die
and the gloves come off
to return indoors, grasping her son
near her breast for an evening meal
and those hands will soothe and stroke
his skin, holding him until sleep sets in
so he, too, can be released
and she, touching skin to skin,
for a moment
can let go


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Poem

this poem

the one I want
to write a history

of words without
sound only color

colbalt carmine gold
leaf viewed late

at night again
at dawn such

tiny silence


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Poem

Mojo Black Coffee

On the way home from work
at four in the morning
the last few seconds of a classic blues song
came chugging hrough the speakers
classic rythm classic notes
and a voice ragged by cigarettes and age
then it ended
and the smooth talkin pot smokin DJ anounced
“that was Mojo Black Coffee with…”
and I thought; “damn, 
you couldn’t have a more blues sounding name
than Mojo Black Coffee
hell black coffee sounds pretty good right now

I’m a blues player too can’t yah tell
I drink my coffee black
take my whiskey neat
I go to work at night
and sing poems that don’t ryyyyyyyhme!!!
I’m a bluuuuuues player too
singin’ ’bout women I once had!!
I’m a bluuuuuues player honey!
life I dont take for granted!
‘Cus I’ma blues playyyyer too
with black coffe on my mind
dun dun-dun dun-dun dun-dun dun-dun du-dun-duuuuuuuuuuuun!


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Poem

Drums Please !!!!!

‘Drums Please !!!’

 

quick silver in the glass looks good enough to sip

wonder how it would contrast with some sour mash

in a glass on the back deck of the wild fig

out the window I watch shadows creep across hoods

and windshields. The heat just now starting to stretch back

into shape and flex. had an uncle that said late june

was slave heat and the sun was looking for backs to beat

the view of that utility pole will do just fine


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Land of Distraction

Or deliver me into a land
so full of distraction that
I can’t possibly regret
how easily it all came apart.
-From my poem, “Adam’s Withdrawal,”
posted during Lexpomo 2016.

Yesterday a boy stood up against his father.
Today the same boy will get stung by a bee
and in a couple friends, a friend will be dead.
Why? Because I’m becoming a novel god
and I will it all to be.

I’ve searched for the land of distraction
by unraveling mem’ries of paradise
and stitching the loose threads
into my own tapestry of life.
I build it from all my loss
in ways that make pain make sense.

Begone Eve!
You have failed in your companionship!
But in doing so, you have shown me
that the way to finally get back to Eden
is by growing it in the heart.


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Poem

Found In The Sketchbook Of Disarmed Emotions, A Study Of Denial 

Found in the sketchbook
of disarmed emotions, a
study of denial 
 
 Framed with glass windows
 to shatter the illusion 
 which shelters regret
 
 External actions
 give internal reactions
 motives of intent

light painting made with FujiFilm XPro2

Inspired by the book

Sketch for a Theory of the Emotions 

by Jean-Paul Sartre (1939)


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Poem

Dopamine

This sandwich is you telling me to eat a sandwich
this Snickers bar is you saying Go ahead go nuts
this beer is you saying Today was hard so just relax
these slices of pizza are you saying Of course
you deserve these slices of pizza this straining
in my joints is me pulling away from you is you
pushing back against me this bowl of buttered
popcorn is you saying You’ve worked so hard
just one more treat my brain is wilted my heart
is draining I want to refrain I want to not want
I want you to quit boiling over I want you to
want me to want in a way that is wanting in a way
that is half-empty in a way that isn’t
shameful that isn’t discouraging that isn’t
empty words echoing in a hollow chamber