Posts for June 8, 2021 (page 5)

Category
Poem

To the Man on the Phone at the Cardiologist’s

his voice bounces around
the hardwooded waiting room
one of those attention-getting voices,
or maybe it’s just the plexiglass amplification
thanks to new-normal COVID barriers
anyway, we learn a few things

Donny took Eugene to Lexington
he laughs at how they have to travel him,
nuisance implied
then, a few choice moments with the F word
including about how he don’t need no permission
from his insurance company to go to the doctor
(we can all agree with that one)
we learned, too, the location of a dialysis building
son, that big ol’ industrial park’s back there,
cause he took someone – or a dog – back behind it to pee,
lots of berries or old rose bushes (he wasn’t sure)
yeah, you use sugar and gelatin
(they must be talking cobbler now)
oh yeah, he was just one big rash, an allergy,
according to the pediatrician
shit, you got egg in lots of things, mayonnaise

we’re spared any more
once the nurse appears, calls his name
I’m sure I’m not the only one relieved
despite the fact,
we were just getting into this
party-line conversation
and I think, who’s privacy is whose here?
maybe privacy is a new thing,
I mean, holler life has never been isolated
we all know all
who’s hurting who, who’s kissing who,
who’s nice, who’s mean as a striped snake,
genealogy by telephone and church social
maybe we’re accustomed to prudish,
and now that we’re our in the techno world
we should talk more, out loud
phone our family more, any time anywhere
and not suffer death in social norms
like this silent waiting room

so, I can’t blame Haywood – that’s what the nurse called him
he’s an honored tradition here,
perhaps a new one,
and I realize now, secretly,
I love it


Category
Poem

The Whole World (for RWF)

A wild turkey is on the porch
looking in the window
the proof is 100 % zero
his move to snap the latch
turns tail to tall fescue

another shot’s in order
to celebrate the correct lable
but even his block is blocked: 
whichever way doesn’t matter 
just dear god let there be no rescue 


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Poem

Solid Black Eyes

The clangorous sound aroused me from slumber,
the pounding and banging sounded like thunder.
Startled, I shook in terrified wonder
that my front door would be torn asunder.

               Knock! Knock! Knock!

               Knock! Knock! Knock!                                   

Quiet, I cautiously crept  toward the door,
careful to step around the creaks in the floor.
A feeling of dread seeping into my core
as I drew closer to the sonorous roar.

               Knock! Knock! Knock!

               Knock! Knock! Knock!                                   

Who is it? I cry in a quivering shout,
shrinking away as someone shuffled about.
Terror and consternation filled me with doubt
as I waited to hear what this was about.

               Let! Us! In!                                   
               Let! Us! In!                                   

Please may we use your phone to call for a ride?
If you were to say yes we can come inside.
We will not hurt you, we have nothing to hide.
I glanced at my watch in disturbance and sighed.

               Let! Us! In!                                   
               Let! Us! In!

I slowly turned the key in the deadbolt lock.
I opened the door glad the screen was still blocked.
Leaned forward peering closely as I took stock
of the children before me on the porch rock

               Can? You? Help?
               Can? You? Help??

Although they did seem quite innocent enough,
my unease had swelled until I could not bluff.
My throat quickly tightened and my heart beat rough
as the two boys were made of nightmarish stuff. 

               Can? You? Help?                                   
               Can? You? Help?

I lost my footing with a scream on the rise,
unable to explain their loathsome disguise.
I felt bolts of horror and haunting surprise
when I finally saw their solid black eyes.

               Who? Are? You?
               Who? Are? You?

We will not hurt you, we just want to go home.
We’re two little boys in the dark and alone.
So would you please let us in to use your phone?
We will be quick for all the kindness you’ve shown.

               Who? Are? You?
               Who? Are? You?

Something inside my weary soul pleaded no.
Do not let them in and do not let them know
that their untimely presence here is as though
the red devil himself was about to show.

               Go! A-way!
               Go! A-way!

My heart exploded through the bones of my chest.
I backed away from my malevolent guests
my body convulsing at their odd request
and slammed the door loudly in frightened protest.

               Go! A-way!
               Go! A-way!

I hid in the shadows to escape their gaze
and peered through the storm window to watch their ways.
Quite sure I was suffering mental malaise 
when I saw their solid black eyes were ablaze.

               Shh! Shh! Shh!
               Shh! Shh! Shh!

I know not their intent or what they imply
when they continue to plead when they stop by.
Night after night until the morning sun flies,
torturing my soul with their solid black eyes.

               Shh! Shh! Shh!
               Shh! Shh! Shh!                                                                             


Category
Poem

Unspoken

The shrug of one shoulder and a raised eyebrow
is her answer to my once-upon-a-question,
rehearsed and rehashed in the quiet of doubt,
hammered into satisfactory readiness, cherished.  

Encircled in that quavering question is the shape
of our yesterday and the scent of my long-ago-past.  

Her spoken word would be my saving grace,
but this message in a gesture strikes me down.  

Unnamed plans, robbed of oxygen, gasp an end.


Category
Poem

Come to bed before things cool off

A firm hand of knowing
Is not the suggestion of fingertips brushing
A knee while sitting on a floral print couch.
The urgency now feels like the urgency then
But staggers if left unattended
No swagger of love unattended.


Category
Poem

The List; a useless love poem (pt. 1)

I asked you
what habits of mine
you found endearing,
not expecting much. 

you took a moment after 
I asked you
to contemplate what
you found endearing

finally, I was given a list
you took a moment after
allowing me
to contemplate what

was said. I’ve always hated myself
finally, I was given a list
allowing me
to let all of that hate go. 


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Poem

untitled

The light through the clouds
rolls across the mountain’s back
as It sleeps, dreaming. 


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Poem

—Resolution—

547 days
she attempted everything

-dish soap
-soft butter
-warm saliva
-vegetable oil
-glass cleaner
-cheap shampoo

previously married ring
jammed against the knuckle

no space to cut the band so
she simply chopped off her finger

had ice cream for dinner


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Poem

My Life Needs a Haircut

I come home to find my door ajar
A single record rolls perfectly through the crack
Bouncing down the stairwell
Slowly I nudge the knob and the deluge begins
A cascade of collectibles and knick knacks
I drop to my knees and play goalie
To no avail, it’s all just too much
Posters sail overhead, a favorite mug shatters
My orange tabby leaps over the scrum
Salivating over a slice of smoked salmon
Iggy Pop has already chased Bowie downstairs
It could have all been saved, too
If I weren’t so preoccupied
With this damned wild hair
Lodged somewhere
Within my peripheral vision
Just out of reach


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Poem

Waiting Game

I’ve bandaged my feet 
and wept my worries,
salved my bruises
and tamped my temper,
wrapped my wrists
and fortified my heart.

Oh, when will my hurts heal?