Posts for June 15, 2023 (page 7)

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Poem

A blight

Each mask a motive and directive,
Every facet flawed and triumphant,
In some grand ambivalence.
Willow wood heart wormbit,
Tongue turned to ash in a minute,
We’re guilty as crows in a murder.

I have read the records of these resigned prayers and requems,
I know every thorn is a crown waiting to be born,
Every rose a disdainful look;
Each passage a step,
Sometimes backwards,
Where even bloomheavy blessings belie a blight,
But believe me when I tell you
I love this.

Vodka for breakfast.


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Poem

Sierras Tiramisu

  I miss you, tiramisu

I reminisce about the times my tongue kissed you

         swallow,

                           chew,

absent are the smiles from the baker too

are you ever replacing things you’re accustomed to?

does my absence also fluster you?

I ate custards and fondue

but they just wouldn’t do

                Sierra where you?!

I miss the baker who baked the best tiramisu


Registration photo of Elizabeth Beck for the LexPoMo 2023 Writing Challenge.
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Poem

He writes

poems in the shape
of mountains  

much like he paints
forests like dreams  

echoing red-bearded
artist, one hundred years  

later in another country
both seeking light  

chasing sanity
between brush strokes


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Poem

haiku 15

lake wakens   ripple
patches widen   become one
urgent current swells


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Poem

Haunted

tw: nonconsentual touch mention

Every day I go into work I pray that you’ll walk in the door

Knowing that if you did, my stomach would drop and I would get sick

Most nights you’re in my dreams

Haunting me, hurting me

Tracing your fingers over my skin

As I whisper “please, stop”

An intimate moment for you

A traumatic one for me

I hear your name and I tremble

Being back in the room from when I was a child has hurt me more than I think I realize

I think of you more than I used to

It’s like you linger in the air here

Even though I’ve tried to scrub it free of you

It’s like you’re haunting me

Every moment I turn around expecting you to be there

Hoping for you to be there

Dreading the fact that you might be one day

I feel like I had finally glued myself back together

It’s like I had finally started making progress

But you clawed your way back into my head

I’m yearning for just a touch of relief 

My body aches at the thought of your touch

My stomach churns at the notion that you’re still out there

Maybe happy

Maybe not

But either way, there’s no winning for me

I want you to disappear off the face of the earth

Of the scope of my mind

I wish you had never happened

Then maybe everything would be okay

Then maybe I’d feel good again

Even though I’m living in my parent’s house

Then maybe I could fall asleep without the fear that I’ll hear your voice in my dreams

Even though I can’t remember what it sounds like

Then maybe I wouldn’t be hurting like this

 

-even masochists would be gentler than this


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Poem

Easter Wednesday

Got in town last night,
and I’ll leave today by dinner.
I’ve already met with his lawyer,
so once this room is gone over,
keepsakes for his grandkids
packed to remember him by,
it’ll be back on the highway home.  

Or maybe not so quickly.
I might need some extra time.  

I’ve found the steno pad,
the one he and his doctors,
the priest and few visitors,
relied on for conversation
when the deafness was complete
and he couldn’t hear his own pain.  

At the top of the last-used page,
in the script of his favorite nurse,
the one who cried when she
tried to hug our shared sorrow away,
How are you today, Carl?  

And in his childish, crude letters,
all he had left with memories gone,
I’m dieng


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Poem

The Exam

she asks what he does all day.
how to tell the doctor’s mean
nurse that he spends afternoons
alone, in a wooden chair 
placed on a flat stone
just beyond the sweeping
curve of the stream’s current

confined to the latex 
undertone of the exam room
belly up on a starchy sheet
she squeezes his left nut
with her right hand…barks
turn your head and cough,
enough is enough
he, as he sometimes does, leaves
his body, flies away to his chair
by the surging creek

nurse ratchet exits
and the long wait for the doctor
begins, he sleeps and dreams
that he’s a guardian angel
watching his younger self splash
naked into icy water shouting
Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night
he wants to whisper Stop
into his own youthful ear
but knows, that even in a dream,
he cannot

he sees himself showing off
to a young woman he barely knows
her perfectly round breasts 
her red shorts damp from his spray
he’s pulling her arm 
she’s shaking her head NO
and yanks her arm back
she wont take his damn test
and she’s not
standing on that river bank
for a minute longer
waiting for him to grow up


Registration photo of Matt F. for the LexPoMo 2023 Writing Challenge.
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Poem

Jonah

I hear a sound with body, a great whale,

A giant ship, a sinewed vessel

Undulating in vicious clouds.

It’s mechanisms creak

And echo

Returns back to me.

I am alone in the whale.

Its mouth is a thousand miles wide.

And I sit with the long fingers which filter krill.

Too big to be swallowed

Too small to be bothered

Its dark and you are not with me.


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Poem

Tenancies

Sometimes I think I hear them, the ones who lived here
before me. The old man found dead in the bedroom
two days after his only friend last heard from him,
the apartment swaddled in cat hair. The young man
who died of AIDS & whose mother planted yellow roses
in his memory that bloom by my front steps each spring,
gone by early summer. The old friend who sheltered here
after her divorce, then welcomed her ex-husband so often
that she remembered why she loved him, & married him again.
The single moms whose rowdy kids trashed the place,
the single dads who drank & chain-smoked every night,
coating the bedroom walls with nicotine & soot.
The old man snoring as his naps get longer & longer,
the young man pacing the hallway & sleeping less & less,
the old friend sighing as the gentleman caller in her bed
touches her in all the old places in a whole new way.
Decades after their forwarding addresses have expired,
I still get their mail. Return to sender, I scrawl. No longer
at this address. But the truth is that we’re all here together,
roommates for life & then some, keeping each other company.


Registration photo of Bill Brymer for the LexPoMo 2023 Writing Challenge.
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Poem

Rainy day tanka

Goose gray, early June,
the hollyhocks stand taller
even the grass in
its slow way whispers thanks. Peace
unto all when rain drops fall.