Everyday Hero
* This a tanka prose form.
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* This a tanka prose form.
A prose section is followed by a five-line tanka.
Traditionally the tanka is in a 5-7-5-7-7 sequence
and the two parts need to refer to each other.
Spurred by a young boy’s reckless curiosity,
my son — as in a nightmare — rushed toward danger.
I leapt, struck dumb with fear, and without a word,
I slapped him — straight across his smile.
My palm sank softly
into still-wet clay.
And every holy child,
inside each expecting woman,
flinched like a startled fish
and stood still.
Translated by Rosalia Ignatova
Red-checkered cloth flappin’
in the gust waves the family over
as surely as Gaga’s calls for Will-ard.
Papa was a Church of God minister,
but Gaga was his Archangel.
His guardian at the gate during his sweet
hour of prayer, his darling bride,
and his comforter in times of need.
Even through times of desperation
her food was her love.
She would be cooking before church,
after church, and sometimes during
(although we weren’t far from the house.)
Her aprons were functional rather than fashion,
her hair– permed, practical, and short–
never in the food!
She seldom wrote down her recipes,
or if she did, there was just a little something missing
not maliciously but naturally–
it’s not like she needed to measure
anything.
She alone prepared the feast
and she could turn this meal out in her sleep.
Her cookin was a dance I loved to watch–
at least until I was expelled by
that oven of a kitchen in August.
Today’s picnics are brought by
KFC or gas station chicken strips.
Gaga would never approve of the Apple
Market usurping her reign.
Nobody ate until Papa said grace
though, but then the picnic began.
Our reverence never waivered for the food.
The scald on her heaping piles of fried chicken
with extra drumsticks. The rivers of Land o’ lakes
butter pooling in the valleys of tall mashed potato
mountains– two bowls– one for us and one for my dad
(although sometimes his were fried
and served in the cast iron.)
Two kinds of tomatoes also: fried green that everyone
had already sampled- despite Gaga’s fussin
and thick sliced Heirloom. Corn on the cob,
green beans, watermelon, and cucumbers
straight from the garden– the last brinin’
in vinegar and sugar to cut the richness of the food–
and, finally, corn bread muffins.
At the “Amen,” nothing went to waste,
and, for Gaga, we are eternally thankful.
A summer’s day in 1957
Our backyard where it grew
The mint, too, which we chewed
The wall supporting the yard and street behind
The garage and the space behind where we climbed
The fence next to Joe’s yard
Nonna picking the basil for cooking
Tomato plants struggling while Joe’s flourished
The swing set until we grew too tall
The peach tree with no fruit
Wasps’ nest on the garage gutters
Half the yard in concrete and the little fence to separate the garden
Whiffleball games in the yard
A scoreboard I made on the garage wall
Brian as catcher with his hat turned backwards
The whole yard in concrete and the chalked batter’s box
Pretending the upstairs porch was the broadcast booth
The upstairs porch with always threatens to fall in dreams
The zinnias Mom planted, leaves grainy to the touch
Nonno listening to the ballgame, transistor to his ear
The picnic table which became a boat a spaceship or anything we wanted.
Emptying the garage with all the stuff to play with
Nonna yelling in Italian to put all the stuff back
The back porch my Uncle Dewey redid in concrete
Nonna’s two back door, one which never locks in dreams
The night-blooming cirrus which came indoors to bloom
The swimming pool too small to swim in
Me on a tricycle in a black-and-white photo
Me 70 years on
remembering.
the moon has terrible cafés –
the coffee tastes like burnt postcards
the syrup tastes faintly of batteries
and the eggs arrive folded into tiny origami boats
still, we go every morning
you sit across from me
wearing your new gravity,
stirring sugar into your cup
there are blue ketchup stains on the tablecloth –
continents from a country that collapsed politely
years ago
the waiter brings chewy bread
there is something holy
about difficult bread
I can’t remember if we’re divorced
or merely orbiting at a respectful distance
the moon jukebox only plays whale sounds
and a familiar song
that skips exactly before the word ‘’home’’
at the counter,
a child in silver boots
tries to pay for pancakes
with four beautiful rocks
the cook accepts them
this is why I love the moon
its economy is based entirely
on sentimentality and dust
you tell me Earth looked small last night
“it looked as small as a blue pill,” you say,
and butter another piece of bread
I nod as though I understand adulthood
through the window,
the dark opens forever in every direction
the kindest thing I’ve ever seen
the Earth looks to me like blue-green bacterial growth
with little foamy white republics multiplying in the dark
It is embarrassing to be alive this long
It is embarrassing to keep wanting breakfast
small heart-shaped goggles
teen lifeguards wear mirror shades–
PLEASE Watch our tadpoles
burn of anger,
summon it,
hands numbed,
a thin ribbon of
smoke unfurling
against the snow
blue-and-white
aluminum
II
spider’s web
held the lamp
huddled in the corner
her closed mouth
try to speak kneeled before her
pocketknife
a few moments
nothing else.
push it the rest of
the way through
completing a stitch.
III
breathing hard
steadied
finished
sweat stung
God’s name
waved the blade
IIII
rhododendron
light
just enough
Earthen
minutes
exhalation
slowly
quietly
softly
rhododendron
soft and hesitant
She lit the lamp.
It was evening.