i’m in that space of feeling restless but
have no place to go but i can’t
sit still and maybe if i could sleep
but i’m too wide awake and
i’d like a good cry but the lump
isn’t hard enough and i should
talk it out but i don’t know what i’m 
feeling and i’d like to escape except
i don’t escape like that anymore
so i’ll just sit here and try not 
to think HA like that works 
i don’t like this inbetweenspace
of nothing is right nothing is wrong
and i’m trying to outrun the racing
thoughts or trying find feelings
when i just want to be numb