I lost it all

In the pursuit of you

So I had nothing else to lose

When I told you I loved you

 

Grieving how I’ve grown out of my old shoes

Tattered and worn

Holes in the soles

But never my own

Always chasing yours

 

Healing isn’t linear

I wasn’t expecting it to be

But goddamn it I at least expected you to miss me

 

If you changed today

I don’t think it would matter

The heartbreak you sentenced me to shouldn’t have been mine to bear

You’re supposed to love me

You told me you loved me

But this isn’t love

 

I’m so tired of seeing your face

I’m so over screaming your name

In my dreams

On my bed

Your fingertips brushing down my spine

Speaking words that were never mine

Sunlight grazing the sheets

I wish you would leave me be

Let me be

Let me be

Leave me