My optimism is heavy
Rife with choice messages from on high,
Or maybe just over my shoulder
Some voice a whispering scream
This guidance divine
yet I remain unsteady,
I’ve given up nothing true
Except loving myself
The pain of memories collide
Nothing desirable is left
Reigned in again
a patchwork of flaws that I’ve accrued,
You know that moment
When you struggle, wondering
Why someone does what they do
The cause of their troubles
a resolution at some point
being heaven sent,
I’ve been this far
And I’m sure that I’ve been farther
Had a completely broken heart
And I’ve done without what’s call a father
I’ve been put down, I can’t be crushed
I’ve never seen the other side
But I’ve had that near brush.