A Wash of Cadmium
I pull out #140 cold press paper
and arrange the supplies.
I sketch a faint, droopy T
to center my art.
With a fine HB pencil and a light touch,
I shape an oval—
flattening your cap’s dented dome.
Now for the base.
Unlike a tree, you are wide as can be:
a thick, bulbous cylinder
for an inch-tall stalk.
Basic geometry.
I look up.
Morning sun strikes from the east.
I shadow your underside
and slice a horizontal line for loamy soil.
Pulling back, I consider your texture:
long, hatching strokes for the stalk,
smaller, frantic slashes for the cap.
I blend in natural dots—
slightly flawed.
The pencil rests.
I dip a #8 faux sable brush into pigment,
then into water.
A thin, bleeding wash of cadmium for the cap,
a pale, back-and-forth cream-tan for the base.
I study your underbelly.
Blow the cap dry.
Darken your spots.
Now, your warts.
I change my brush,
stipple on a harsh, bumpy texture
in dioxazine violet tones.
Step back again.
Mix yellow umbre to catch the light.
How deep does your base grow?
An inch? Two?
Anchored in by a dense web of hidden threads,
feeding on each other,
I understand.
But no others are close.
This is good.
I remove the spoon from my tea cup,
dig around,
dig deeper,
scoop you onto the paper.
I fold all up tight,
hold you over the fire pit.
Drop you.
Eradicate you.
Symbolic only?
I pray another prayer—
that the surgeon’s steel, too,
cuts out my friend’s fungal-
shaped cancer, leaving
not a single vestige.
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Michele, it is hard to know where to begin. You take the reader line by line through your poem. First, I too wish your friend well. Secondly, you have an important and powerful environmental message in this poem.
The thought process you take us through, the geometry of art, and then the turn– Lovely.
I love all the art details in this poem! It reinforces my notion that the color mixing I did with my grandson today was really worth the mess!! And most of all – best wishes for your friend.
Color mixing with little ones always worth it❤️
Agree with Shauna about your use of geometry and art.
Love the purpose for the drawing: “I fold all up tight/hold you over the fire pit./Drop you./Eradicate you.”
May it be so.
Interesting how you “center” your art in the first stanza which serves to center us as well. This is beautiful!