Bad Pain Day
I am stuck in this negative
space
Where you are leaving you have left you are left that is
barbs and things
I wish I forgot I slang I slung I sling
These shards of
Myself
I broke I am broken I am breaking off these parts
To prove I don’t need them anymore before anyone can
hurt them hurt me hurt me with them
And I crush them in my hands
and they cut through they are cutting through they have cut through
Everywhere
And sometimes you. Sometimes they cut through you, too.
I don’t want to possess the grace anymore to kiss
My own smarting flesh, which so often you
Could and would and did.
And forgave me
For my woundedness, my woundingness, for wounding the
space
between us.
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“I don’t want the grace anymore to kiss”
All this wonderful word play in which you show that funny ain’t always funny
The verb tenses work so well, especially the repetitiveness, to convey the complexity of grief and regret and longing, the not wanting to lose anymore of what has been lost but is still slowly slipping away. Thank you for this piece.
feels just like you wrote it- barbs and things and slings and shards. slung.